Dis-ease – a poem about love and cancer

I watch her body
fight life, death
fight for breath
and I am
inside her, she
inside me
will always be
since the moment
I was formed
a daughter

she watches me
seeks the mother
the child
the woman
she wishes I’d be

can I
lose myself
inside her
ravished body
for the sake
of mother’s love
of fewer regrets

the monster came
eating away at
extravagant love
radical inclusion
when I was still
a child

came again
to devour her body
after I discovered
declared my purpose
to love
unconventionally
in spite of
her closed door

can it find me now,
reach for me
with dripping claws
deep inside
the me in her —
can I conquer
this disease?

Will she?

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My Monster

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How do I tell you
about the ache I meet
when my day begins
–about how I feel
greedy and guilty
for the hunger in me?

How do I choose
the calm expression
the smile of generosity
when you reach for
another — and I love her!

In her I recognize
my need for you
— tell me what words
make that jealousy
un-monstrous and
embraceable?

—–

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